i'm fuckin bored...

MURDER CITY DEVILS TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



most excited i've ever been in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

soooooo good!!!!!!!!!

last night was cool...i hung out with my new friends Andrew and Nicole...Andrew and I played guitars...Nicole made a BITCHING dinner! soooooooo gooooood...


we are talking about this artist co-op....which should be cool...


art nights!


i'm trying to better myself...i still feel lost and a bit insecure in life...not in me...i'm perfectly secure in who i am...but life in general is insecure to me...anyway...wrote a few new songs...i'll be playing them soon....hopefully...i'm really nervous about playing them...i hope they make sense to the people who hear them...


i still wish things were the way they were a few months ago....it was easier then...

but then again...that's life and growing up does suck indeed....


anyway....


thanks to all my friends...
you mean the world to me...especially since i need friends more than ever now....



so again....thank you.....<3

christian...

dear heart.....

i threw you away with the trash this morning....
now I'm like everything else...
cold and empty....
like the beer cans that are left on the ground...

the 11th day of the new year....last night was another drunken blur...if i keep this going I'll be out by 30...which isn't bad....I'm 27 now...so I'm on the right track...


this little voice in my head says "give up"



so i do....



i give up....you win....

it's 12:42.......

















i'm so done....

































Don't bother going through your motions.
Nothing that makes sense ever works out.
Don't kid yourself, you know they want money.
Nothing can be good on its own merit.
Put your trust in simple acts.
Make the flyers get them up all over town.
Don't kid yourself, you know they want money.
Please keep in sight what makes you care.
You have it always.
Spinning and spinning.
Dancing in plastic, shake-up snow.
Do you believe in what you want?
Your camera flash.
On us, meaningless.
You cannot waste a single night.
What you ignore is priceless to me.

dear live journal......

3 weeks drunk......
i tried...


2009 won't be any different....just another drunken year....



"get your fucking life together mate!"

wish i could start over again...

 
Lets drink the night away she said...
   Refill my glass...
another beer?? yes please...
toss out all responsibility was heard...

  call the cab, the nights getting old...
stale places, cold faces,  3AM...
  drink this wine down boy...
to the tracks we go...

     "we'll watch the cars roll by...
and wonder where they're headed...
lets drink this wine to the night...
     and ponder the cities traveled....

carefree as the night air....


we run around the night...
    without intentions of...
looking or going back...
    smoking cigarettes...


meet me at the bar...we got a lot to do
meet me at the bar... we got a lot to...

so i've decied that i want to live on a boat far far away...away from all new people and away from everyone i have already met...just me and the open sea. i'm dead serious. that's what i want. i want people to stop talking to me and i want people to stop wanting to " get to know me" and i want to just be left alone ... i want a few books one being the dictionary. and i want to be able to roam the blue ocean. i want people to leave me alone. i want people that have already met me, i want them to forget about me.. just let it fade into a nothing like memory... i might come back...probably not. but that's where the blue sea will take me...



that's all for now...

christian.deth.


people are overrated...and the term friend is the most rediculous thing ever!!!!

i've got a preachers mouth...
and i rock and roll heart!!!!!


dear hearts...

i've got a preachers mouth...
and i rock and roll heart!!!!

dear hearts....

so i'm in mammoth neveda and the snow conditions are fucking sweet...

day 1..sunny and warm..i wore a sweater and that's it's...

day 2...it was snowing the whole time...FRESH POWDER!

FUCK YEAH!...

it's was bad!!!!

OH YEAH!..and last night i got drunk with astrialian people...it was awesome...

so...i have the interent again.that's good...i'm drunk and lonely and bored......hope tonight is the night i fall asleep fast...

this is my ninja sword...










if anyone want's to buy stuff let me know please....

ok..so i know no one really reads my journal cuz i'm really never on it anymore....but i need help..i need to make about 300 dollars....


here's where you come in...

i'm seeling things...pics will be up really soon of the things i'm selling..if you see anything you like then let me know and it's yours....

example...

i have the original predetor vs. batman comics..almost brand new....

i'll sell the whole (set 3 in the set...) for
$5.00

pics will be up in a few days...

christian...

this is my cute ass cat...enough SAID!











thanks abunch....

christian

the time that has passed...the people that have been met times things that have been shared...life is good for the most part...got fired from my job..NOT COOL...anyone want to hire me???? i need a job really bad...anyway...on other news...life is great..got a great girl...her name is rose....live in a great house...have a a new kitty..pics on the way i'm sure....


if i'm not too lazy from not working....


life is life and that's all i can ask for...